sleep was good. momentary distraction.

i really really dont know why i cant get over it. i just dont know why at all. im really trying so very hard. i just read theen yew's post on the 16th alpha house com blog they have.
its really very touching. im really gonna miss out on so much, so so much. i really do love the lovely bunch of cheerleaders. A LOT.

no offence. ive never thought that i'll ever make such good, awesome friends in Singapore. of course there have been over the years.

KHS: kel, yun ting, yan ling, see wei, fang yi
though we've long graduated from primary school , we still do stay in contact once in a awhile.:)

TKGS: cal, rae, van, kaps, sha, heeq (all diff school, glad we met up yesterday!)
yibo, minzhen, sharon, shihan, lp (i'll se ya'll in school, cept mz, miss you mz!)
never lost contact. glad for that.

yeah. as for TJC..

my OG's very fine. they were the first bunch of friends i made in jc. made orientation a very fun period that i'll never forget. I've made some good friends from it! friends who always say HI when they see me. friends who ask me if im okay when i looked sad. thank you guys.
my first TJC BFF, you know who you are, was from this very bonded og, OG14! :)

soccer's not that bad. yeah. just need to know them better. soccer girls, we shall have one outing one day!

CG13/09. not exactly the kinda class i would have thought to be fun at first. but as time passed, i got to know them better. my CG's not that bad. GWEN, CLAYTON, KRIS, VAL, JERM. :)

lastly, ALPHA CHEERLEADERS.
never really found out the reason i wanted to join cheerleading so much. nevertheless, never regretted going for the trials.

SHIYAN:
THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for selecting me, making me the flyer, letting me discover my potential in cheerleading (well in terms of locking). without your approval, i wouldn't have been part of this roller coaster experience, this experience i am sure i will cherish throughout my JC years. you have been a very good cheer captain! bangla power! hehe.. thogh we didnt win cheer caompetiton, we're really the best in my heart. though i was from zandor, cheer had made me love ALPHA.

thx for ur blog post.

i read it on tuesday/wednesday.i was really really touched. really really touched. i cried. helena loves you too.

REUBEN:
talked to you on my first trial. found out that you are damn light, you are in dance, you know Jeremy. you are really one of the nicest guys ive ever known. really a friendly, comforting, caring person that can provide good words of encouragement. You are one of those people that i'll miss and regret not being able to work with (in HC). thank you reuben for helping me so much. i really am. always rmb: if you need any help ($ , hw or anything), look for me without hesitation!! I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU! :D YOU ARE REALLY REALLY A WONDERFUL AND GOOD FRIEND THAT I'LL CHERISH!!!! THX FOR INITIATING ALL THE OUTINGS TOOO!

TIONGWEI:
hey senior. you've spread the alpha spirit to me, im loving alpha more than ever. i didnt stalk you to find your blog. well unlike mine where no one reads, urs got quite some readers! thanks for spreading the word of GOD to me. i really admire your strong passion for God. i really wanna check out your church one day. i was thinking of this sun, not sure if it's a good idea though. (shall ask him later if it's not awkward enough). anw, thx for adding laughter and fun to cheerleading. though you have many annoying habits (pulling of the shoelaces, ice shooting...),, it's been a fun ride with you. though you were not in your best mood that day, im glad we managed to do eiffel tower together during the open house.:D
most mportantly,

finally, thank you, my christian friend.

KAIZEN & IVAN:
fellow country mates! nice to have known u guys! practised my indon quite a bit. :D

kaizen, you are really one funny guy! i'll rmb how much you practices the cartwheels for! and your plagued msn nicknames!

and ivan, dangdut!

thought i doubt we will meet up when we r in indo, i hope we can stay in touch nonetheless!

HANLE: thx for always being so high all the time!

SHANNA: thx for being a good friend that always always smile. i really think reuben and you make such a lovely pair (you know i dont mean to imply anything).anglican high, alpha cheer and my life will be different without you!:)

YUG HAN:
glad to have known you, my campaign partner. dont feel bad abt what has happened. yeah. you deserved it. one's never enough, heh. but i believe in you. put ur ultra loud voice to good use will you?

NIKKI:
lovely dance partner. my friend say ur cute! lol thx for putting up with my weight, and those backaches ive caused. hope ur happy now, happy with what u r doing :)

HUANG RUI:
^_^ i really really like this emoticon. thank you huang rui so very much for believing in me, trusting me. I BELIEVE IN YOU TOO. it was nice working with you for the proposal. i'm really very glad for having you in the group. sry for calling you half way to vent my frustrations! yup, i will miss you! dont flirt too much!

CALEB:
part of my memory of the first trial is the way back home. and that was with you. hahah you couldnt believe i was in soccer, you told me abt how u were in hockey and red cross. you told me you were running for hc and to vote for you.you talked really a lot but im glad we talked! thx caleb! you are really one nice guy! though ur ego is as big as tiongwei's! i hope to see you during trngs! though i havent seen you goal keeping, i believe very much in you! let's make TJC soccer proud!:D

CHLOE, GRACE, GEN, INEZ: all you you complete the team! without all of you, we couldnt have completed the routine!

i am missing all of you and will miss all of you! though the future is very uncertain, im trying to be positive again, be my usual self again.